bj draKe is dead
…bj draKe is dead . bjdraKe.com is archived , only . the character of bj draKe was meant to walK the surface of my subconscious n pull the rot / d roots of…
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god loves ugly
god loves ugly A Play About Suicide in One Act by bj draKe Copyright 2018, by bj draKe publishing. bjdrakewriting@outlook.com admin@bjdrake.com www.bjdrake.com Cast of Characters Derek: A man in his early 20s.…
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adventures of the scuzzy winKerbean
we stood swaying under the flicKering spotlight of a streetlamp , shadows cast over our intoxicated intentions , as we wait / d for the late – night bus to bring us across…
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coffee shop
soggy chewing gum stucK w / out taste left settled for weeks w / but only a moist dampening from the waitress ‘ smutty dish – rag it picK / d up a…
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Kitchen lullabies
when he leaves for worK , she can finally cry . apologizes for the situation n this fucK / d up world she ‘ s bringing me into . nicotine surges through my…
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first touch
under buzzing halogens that flicKer / d w / a dusty sizzle , his soft teeth chatter / d n shooK free the damp flaKes of mushy asbestos that dust / d his…
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meshugaas
isolated . understatement . heavily fortified in my basement . concentration is caught in contemplation . thoughts Keep racing . will alcohol erase them ? i ‘ m pacing bacK – n –…
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not the one
i could see it in her eyes that she wasn ‘ t the one . just a temporary star liKe she stared at the sun . commitment is prison bars n she want…
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amusing ourselves to death
you ain ‘ t taught that you ‘ re locK / d in a box n the only way out is to change your thoughts . you ain ‘ t taught that it…
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weather / d the storm
sunlight broKe thru tired clouds n swollen eyes . i awoKe up w / duct – tape stucK over my mouth n a salt / d tongue , barricaded in a clammy wheelhouse…
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detach / d
i invest / d my time . she infest / d my mind . then she left when i was depress / d . … i wonder why . i never loved her…
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superstitious
superstitious . broKen dishes . cracK / d mirror . dead circle of fishes . horrific . nightmares vivid . burnt out light in the night . que the cricKets … innocent as…
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mushy worms
mush worms in – between fingers . funnel sunshine into bloodstream . nightmares spun into cold – sweat realism . salivating w / adrenaline , not pleasure . guilty , blacK tar /…
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dusty attic
it was a moist room w / a ceiling that sag / d liKe a tarp paunch / d w / rain . i was barefoot / d . my feet sunK into…
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monarch butterflies
a blip / d hiss splinter / d from mother ‘ s thin , dry quivering lips as she whistled a lullaby that gave her courage when she was young n scared .…
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deny / d
paper w / verity of self burns eyes , roughly massaged into twist / d balls of crumpled veto toss / aside , forgotten until not late – night landmines , crumbled sounds…
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number 27 , please
a small weep was gasp / d from the windshield wipers that could no longer breathe, drowning in the heavy raindrops dump / d from the torn firmament above. thick n soggy clouds…
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leave
the one ‘ s who / d stay are asK / d to leave when they say what you don ‘ t want to believe . follow n liKe bj draKe
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fly away
you can walK w / me , but don ‘ t say a word . we ‘ ll talK about it afterwards , rest assured . best to live it first , regret…
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hand – me – downs
i was a young child dress / d in blue – jean overalls n a yellow t – shirt . i had a point / d cardboard party hat on . my elbows…
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gypsy moth
canopy / d umbrella of silKy dry leaf shading the scrapes , gouges n scabs from the infectious pain of the sun ‘ s sanative warmth n pleasantries that a starved sallow needs…
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dead ringer
repeating history . same old mistaKes . there ‘ s no growth in praying for change . turn the page . train the ego . say you ‘ re sorry ; you hurt…
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dismantled
he constantly compared himself to everyone he wasn ‘ t . never once was he the topic of discussion . easily agitated liKe tapping on percussions . perfectionism saved him from burning out…
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i thinK i ‘ m dying
arms tingling . blurry vision . grab the table . room Keeps spinning . these decisions must ‘ ve caught up . i ‘ ve let down those who help / d me…
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baptized
my soul had left me . petrol empty . the devil tempts me . i must confess thee . the rest is history . stored in a box . shoved in the attic…
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cucKoos nest
i ‘ m all alone in my room w / no one to talK to except a doctor named doom . i never feel clean liKe a cat when it grooms . none…
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diagnosed
doctor told me that i sound depress / d . it caught me off – guard ; never guess / d the suburbs is where depression rests . seen a few counsellors .…
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hangover
the hangover ? it ‘ ll Kill me . lid pop / d off . no idea what the pill be . you feel me ? void / d . use liquor to…
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gen – x
I don ‘ t need you to push if i ‘ m staring off a cliff . if everyone ‘ s jumping , i ‘ m one of those Kids . the situation…
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flag of defeat
cherish the sham freedoms control the remote , mindlessly bury jizz – stain / d clump of jean shreds of powder / d cheese , piled sticKy crumb / d dorito remnants slob…
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ruin / d
just six years ago i was fucKing miserable . all i Knew was depression . it isn ‘ t risible . is it full ? nah , it ‘ s empty . don…
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drone ! stoned !
i Know it ‘ s crazy , but i bear in mind that sunshine maKes you happy , so i need to stay inside . otherwise , i ‘ m depleted of inspiration…
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presage
never had a cigarette that i didn ‘ t smoKe . i don ‘ t laugh at other people ‘ s joKes . still have a lot of vices , but none that…
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refutation
what it comes down to ? feels liKe i ‘ m rummaging through a life i never Knew . maybe i don ‘ t want to Know . along with the truth pain…
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bad dreams
i once held a handful of sleeping pills . i swallow / d them n it didn ‘ t feel real . i held a lot of guilt . felt a lot of…
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never told me
mom never told me there ‘ d be days liKe this . the wounds are serious ; a stitch won ‘ t fix . hush those lips , don ‘ t grow negativity…
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catchpenny blues
wasted time leads to wasted efforts . i Know that you can ‘ t wait forever . a man once said pain is his guilty pleasure . we had the same initials n…
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muddy grave
laud misfortune . at last ; lament priggishness dancing atop of his muddy grave laggardly . euphoric whisper of ” i told you so . ” oddly fulfill / d . follow n…
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esurient King
passionless love of life . stone – wall affection , shiver . lies lollygag lazily in my eyes . prideful as the lone lion , lost on an island w / messy blanKets…
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national disgrace
i ‘ m a draft dodger , not getting involved in fighting a war that can never be resolved . bodies w / bombs on them ain ‘ t that uncommon ; what…
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neon propaganda
disinformation preys on impressionable teenage minds . a waveringly attentive generation consumed by flashing lights n cheaply made chinese nicK – nacKs to fiendishly collect , endlessly . ritalin junKies w / wide…
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lost
everywhere i go n everyone i see is proving to me we ‘ ve lost grip w / reality . fatality in the bacK alley . want / d those shoes so badly…
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h_ngm_n
how it goes ? don ‘ t asK today . my patience ? went that – a – way . rain is drizzling . i feel miserable . i ‘ m a lost…
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toss n turn ( sleepless again )
he trust / d her when she said she wouldn ‘ t leave . she Knew he was gullible , so she said what he / d believe . his love is under…
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ghost
what the fucK did i do ? lost memories . did i give them to you ? life is peaches smush / d into a rotten goo . always empty beaches on the…
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spill / d inK
elevated mind state . heavenly divine fate . how do you define great when all replicates ? avoid cheddar ‘ s bate . dwell in the underground , depths of hell infest /…
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fractured mind
split the mind wide open . redirect focus . quit moping around , you ‘ re not hopeless . motion is my motive . Keep hurt in n it turns explosive . i…
