i once held a handful of sleeping pills .
i swallow / d them n it didn ‘ t feel real .
i held a lot of guilt . felt a lot of pain .
only choice that remain / d was erase my name .
wouldn ‘ t place blame on no one …
just bored n i wasn ‘ t having fun .
mouth is liKe a funnel to vodKa n rum .
alcohol is trouble but i invited it to come .
now looK what i ‘ ve done . i ‘ m laying in bed .
body is numb n i ‘ m almost dead .
instead i awoKe w / regret n
spoKe w / my folKs n focus / d on the steps .
no hope is in death . learn to love life .
build a comfy nest w / some birds n a wife .
provide supper ; dissect worms w / a knife .
fly home at night . worK follows the light .
it ‘ s alright if you fall down or trip .
the problems only arise after you quit .
that ‘ s it .
tape off the scene .
maybe this is just a bad dream .
drown the hurt n suffocate hateful words .
maKe a trail or wait for them to pave one first .
i pinch / d a major nerve ; my heart palpitates .
don ‘ t be concern / d when if i vegetate .