let me say this from the bottom of my heart ;
i honestly didn ‘ t thinK i ‘ d maKe it this far .
standing at the start line waiting for the gun shot .
first step looK / d down saw a drip of blood drop .
a blacK cloud is raining red on me .
maKe amends w / myself ?
no ; maKe enemies .
until death maKes dead of me
i ‘ ve been waiting for it to get to me .
the devil stood proud , right next to me .
i stand out in crowds like an x is on me .
… i thought it was best to leave
the best of me repress / d n be the rest of me .
invest time in building regrets .
built a duplex for the overflowing mess .
so fucKing depress / d ; i can ‘ t shaKe it .
swallow / d a bottle of pills , didn ‘ t taste it .
i was drowning in a downward spiral .
only thing looKing up is my eye – rolls .
lit a smoKe w / the passion of a pyro .
” cigarettes Kill . ”
yeah , i Know .
prefer to be alone .
bathing in her opinions n
covering them w / cologne .
cover / d my horns , but
they still poKe through .
how come everyone ‘ s afraid ,
but you ?
how come i can ‘ t push you away ?
you should leave me behind in yesterday .