never had a cigarette that i didn ‘ t smoKe .
i don ‘ t laugh at other people ‘ s joKes .
still have a lot of vices , but none that help cope .
feel liKe i ‘ m drowning while everybody floats .
i ‘ m being follow / d by crows n stepping on worms .
the needle ain ‘ t a weapon when used to calm nerves .
… loss of words .
forgotten memories , liKe
the seventies or dead celebrities .
i ‘ m focus / d on relieving the hatred that ‘ s held in me .
i ‘ m sorry , don ‘ t Know if i can continue to pretend to be
somebody who ‘ s smiling n who ‘ s always friendly .
i ‘ m physically drain / d from choices i ‘ ve made .
life gave me lemons . i clean my cuts w / lemonade .
teeth grit / d w / rage n my fists are clench / d .
cut you off in the middle of your sent – …
i ‘ m nervous i ‘ m creating my own outcome .
… why ‘ d he die so young ?